My heart is breaking

If you'll look to the left hand column and down a little ways, you'll see a button for sweet Veiyah, who is one week older than Jude. Veiyah's twin sister went to be with Jesus when they were born and Veiyah herself struggled through many operations for her own heart condition. But fight she did.

Last year some time, she made it onto the list for a heart transplant and early this year she was granted a Make A Wish trip to Disney. I am struggling so much right now to not have the arrogance to be angry at God. Wednesday, Veiyah's mom, Ani, posted on Facebook that they were on their way to the hospital that Veiyah had been life flighted to. She had been throwing up mucus and then became unresponsive. It turns out she had been having a heart attack and also aspirated the mucus. Last night she went into Jesus' arms and is probably sitting next to her sister, Aderah.

I know this is good news for Veiyah, but my heart is once again just ripped to shreds like it was and has been since dear Christina's sudden passing back in October. Who am I to question God? But still, I do. I will continue to pray for Ani and Jeremy Karg and their two older girls, Madi and Selah, just like I do for Jon and his girls every day since Christina went to be with Jesus and her babies that went on before her. My heart is shattered, but not without Hope. I know this life wasn't promised to be without troubles. But I am still just so sad. So sad.

Grieving

My sweet friend Christina went to the arms of her Savior on Wednesday night. She was only 3 years older than me with the most precious 5 daughters. Her youngest is the same age as Jude and her oldest is one of Jude's most favorite baby sitters. There are so many things I could say about this dear lady, but I am going to leave it to her husband, Christian. This is the message he sent out today:

To all who haven't heard, Christina Jones Hooker, my beautiful wife and perfect mother of my precious girls, very unexpectedly went to be with Jesus last night, after a hard 24 hour struggle.

These are hard words to say. First, thank you so much for those who prayed so fervently for her life. The preciousness of her life was greatly reflected in your outpouring of concern and grief.

We do...n't know why, but Christina suffered a severe heart attack Tuesday evening. There was no warning. One moment she was a happy, active young mother, and the next she was undergoing CPR for 15 minutes on the ER at Erlanger hospital. The doctors DID revive her, and fought to save her 24 heroic hours.

She lost that battle. She is so very much needed and missed, and though we do not blame her or God, an awesome person leaves an awesome gap in the lives of those they are closest to. Christina's friends and loved ones, please grieve with me and her children. We are facing something we can only heal with the love of God almighty and you, those who loved her. We are making arrangements at Wilson's funeral home in LaFayette, GA, and I will post om her account as more information becomes available.

Listen to me. Hold close what you have. Your wives, husbands, and children. Every fantasy I had that what is precious to me is too good to be taken was destroyed last night. There are NO guarantees. Every moment we have here is a gift. Live that while you can.